Breaking Bad: "Felina"

 **Spoilers Below**:

“I did it for me. I liked it. I was good at it. And I was really … I was alive” – Walter White

Expectations for how Breaking Bad was going to end were exceptionally high. And considering we place so much weight on how tv shows end in the first place that meant things were so loaded against it being completely satisfying no matter what happened. But I have to say, all the same, that as far as things can give you everything you’d hope for, Breaking Bad did a pretty phenomenal job right up until the bitter end. 

This was Breaking Bad revisiting every last meaningful aspect of what made it great. On a character level this was pretty perfect. This was a version of Walt we haven’t ever seen. He came full circle to accept that he was selfish and vicious and simply wrong. The quote above is to me the crucial moment of the episode. I expected, and I’m sure many of you might have anticipated, that Walt would still skirt the question of responsibility. If you think about it the one thing Walt has wanted for so very long is death. When his cancer was in remission he punched the towel dispenser because now he no longer had an excuse to justify his behavior. Death would be the ultimate reprieve for him but he hadn’t quite earned it yet. He had yet to show remorse and guilt. 

The cold open of the episode is essentially Walt having a conversation with this twisted universe that has allowed him to get away with so much. This world has become a character unto itself; it’s a world with a certain logic and with a high conception of morality. For a while the quote that I thought would appear above was a completely worn down Walt whispering “Just get me home… I’ll do the rest”. And for once the universe was like, “Well, dag-nabbit, may be Walt is being honest for once! Let’s see how this plays out!” (For some reason apparently the universe is a wizened hillbilly in my mind). 

For a brief window the episode is misdirecting us into considering that perhaps Walter means to take down Elliot and Gretchen as part of his plan. But after an excruciatingly intense and drawn out sequence where he enters their home (unbeknownst to them) and then threatens them into giving Walter Jr. what remains of his money, we realize that nope: the Nazis and Gretchen are the real intended target, as many suspected.  I think there would have been some level of catharsis to Walt taking down the two individuals that really were, supposedly, the first to bring out the worst to his pride, but it also likely would have been a little hollow. Walt has shifted mental gears and there would be no real pleasure in this kind of vengeance. 

The callbacks in this episode are actually quite astounding. Think for a moment how the show gives us one last appearance of Skinny Pete and Badger. It didn’t need to, but man if it was not really pleasing (A big old grin was on my face at the sight of them and their low-brow antics). The stoner Abbott and Costello duo pointed laser pointers at Gretchen and Elliot to trick them into thinking hitmen were watching them. The initial moment is pure badass, pulp Breaking Bad where Walt watches as the red dots land on his former colleagues chests and forces them into submitting to his scheme. But the moment after is pure black comedy Breaking Bad with Skinny Pete and Badger bickering. And then the show shifts into morality play Breaking Bad. Another contender definitive quote of the episode comes when Skinny Pete and Badger question the morality of their actions. Walt hands them some money and ask them how their actions feels now; a little better they reply. That scene is Breaking Bad in a nutshell. People do bad things, feel bad about it but find excuses to justify their immoral actions. 

The show then quickly pushes through the events we’ve already seen in the flashforwards. It only pauses briefly to have Walt once again contemplate what he’s done. He looks at the “Heisenberg” written in spray-paint on his old living room wall. He flashes back to the pilot episode when Hank suggested he take a ride with him some time to check out one of the meth labs he busts up. “Get some excitement in your life,” Hank presses. “Someday,” Walt mutters. There was no turning back from that moment. Walt used the cancer as an excuse to finally step outside his milquetoast self. 

Walt then takes on the first of his intended targets. Even if director Vince Gilligan hadn’t done that really explicit shot of the stevia into the coffee we would have picked up on the fact that the ricin was slipped in. Sometimes Gilligan underlines points too much. But it’s rare enough that it doesn’t matter. Gilligan really is a ferocious, daring and intelligent director. Gilligan makes an excellent use of visual space in this episode. Notice how he shoots Gretchen and Elliot’s home. There are the more obvious shots such as Walt hiding in the shadows to the obliviousness of the couple. But there are more subtle things at work as well; look how he creates the spatial relationship between Walt and the unsuspecting Gretchen and Elliot and builds up the tension to the point where Gretchen and Elliot will realize that Walt is there. Take another scene, that of Skylar and Walt. If my use of the term visual space is confusing then hopefully the placement of Bryan Cranston in this scene will make it clearer. We think we know everything about what there is in this apartment, but Gilligan uses that sneaky pole (reminiscent of the one in Pete Campbell’s old office on Mad Men). In the restaurant scene Gilligan doesn’t overstate the point that Walt is sitting at a nearby table; he lets us come to that realization on our own. 

Walt also uses the opportunity at the restaurant to gain entrance to the Nazi compound, using his shaggy state to alleviate worries of any foul play. Walt then proceeds to go to Skylar, but not before Skylar receives a phone call from Marie warning her that Walt is back in town. The coup de grace of this scene is Anna Gunn’s stifled, painfully mustered “Thanks”. The character, relationship coda given to Marie and Skylar is one in a checklist that Breaking Bad exactingly goes through in the finale. We start with Gretchen and Elliot; barely visible characters after early on. We then proceed to minor but lovable characters Skinny Pete and Badger. We then move on to Marie’s send off. She’s as prickly and self-concerned as ever and we wouldn’t have it any other way. 

Walt and Skylar’s conversation is brief. Skylar is broken-down. Her voice is barely audibly above a whisper. She’s furious but she’s suffered too much to really display anymore emotion. Walt gives her the lottery ticket and notes its significance (“It’s a burial site”). The best moment in all of this, if you couldn’t tell from the quote that opens this piece, is where Walt attempts to explain himself. “If you say you did it for the family one more time,” she begins fed up. Walt calmly steps in: Nope, I did it for me; I’ve come to accept that. The best part of that moment and that quote is the last part. Walt begins, “I was really” before trailing off; he could say any number of things but he quickly lands on the truth. He felt alive. He had become so white bread bland and self-loathing for everything he could have been but never was. 

Walt briefly visits Holly. The great part of this scene is how Walt exits. He doesn’t even say good bye to Skylar, look at her or pay her notice. He walks out recognizing that there’s no more appropriate way to leave than as quietly and without protestation as possible. He then watches Flynn from a safe distance. The camera lingers on this moment for a long time. There’s a fantastic camera choice where the camera slowly dollies in onto Cranston’s face and it’s just maybe twenty or thirty seconds but that’s infinity in television time. It’s the last inhale of breath before the action that follows. 

The last stretch of the episode is really about Walt and Jesse, and, well, that felt absolutely appropriate (if anything I wanted more time spent with these two, but c’est la vie). We know the Nazis are going down (at least, we’re pretty sure – knowing Vince Gilligan it could very well have gone very wrong in those last moments) so it’s less about Walt taking them down and more about him having this final bit of time with Jesse. 

The action is, of course, a wonderfully intense sequence. From the moment Walt drives up to the gate, Gilligan draws out the sequence. When Walt attempts to get his car keys to set off the jerry-rigged remotely activated M-16, it’s every bit as exciting as anything the show has ever done before. 

But the best part of these last few scenes is Walt and Jesse. Walt tackling Jesse to save him is almost cheer-worthy. Their confrontation in the aftermath where Walt kicks a gun over to him and begging Jesse to kill him is a necessary, cathartic one. For a second we think perhaps Jesse could go through with killing Walt but it’s not in him and then he gives himself the out when he notices the gunshot wound to the chest. And then Gilligan gives one last capper to the relationship. They stand at a distance from one another, drenched in shadows. They nod to one another. The nod speaks volumes; it’s an action that speaks depths of emotions I could not begin to articulate in writing. 

All that’s left is for Walt to die. He goes to the meth lab and looks at the equipment. Is he remembering all the thrilling times he had making meth? He looks at the equipment with a weary grin; he’s self-satisfied. He’s perhaps the most truly satisfied he’s ever been. And then he collapses, smearing blood on the pristine silver lab equipment, dirtying things as much in death as he did in life. We end with a bird’s eye view, pulling up and away from the dead, spread eagle Walt. At that moment it’s as if we’re the universe looking down at Walt in judgment and satisfaction. 

Stray Thoughts:

-The song selection for this episode is pretty fantastic.  Marty Robin’s “El Paso” which plays at the end of the opening scene and provides the episode with its title “Felina” in its prescient lyrics:  “Maybe tomorrow/ A bullet may find me/ Tonight nothing's worse than this/ Pain in my heart”. Badfinger’s “Baby Blue” which plays over the final scene and has the fittingly opening lyrics: “Guess I got what I deserve”.

-Betsy Brandt never is given enough credit. Her appearance here is brief but it’s every bit as good as ever. Marie was a purposely grating character and Brandt made her sympathetic even occasionally likable despite her shrillness.
-Marie has some hilarious trouble attempting to remember Becky's, uh, I mean Carole's name. 
-The moment the keys fall out from the car visor felt like a Schrodinger's Cat kind of moment; the keys could or could not have been there all along, the Universe just had to decide whether Walt deserved them to be there.  

-“Should make one hell of a story”, says Walt posing as David Lynn, New York Times journalist. It sure did Walt.

-I love how Walt closes the doors to the Schwartz’s home. He’s patient and precise even in this moment. The scene feels like a horror movie right down to Elliot pulling the knife on Walt. “If we’re gonna go that way you’re going to need a bigger knife,” Walt replies. I don’t think he believes it but he’s aware they’ll buy it all the same.

-The counterpointing classical music in that scene is just perfect and a little eerie. It makes the shift to Dave Porter’s menacing electronic score when the laser pointers appear all the more disturbing.

-I don’t know if the orange glow fantasy sequence in Jesse’s head was necessary but it’s still heartbreaking all the same. They made Aaron Paul look awful and more fractured than ever. Anyone have any ideas about the box he was making in the dream and what it meant?

-Uncle Jack’s pride ultimately does him in. He can’t be associated with a rat. And that gives Walt just enough time to kill him. Pride does wonders in the Breaking Bad universe, doesn’t it?

-How do we feel about Jesse killing Todd? It’s well-earned but I was hoping that Jesse didn’t have to kill any more people.

-Uncle Jack has one last cigarette like in an Old Western.

-Oh, how Walt has changed. He doesn’t even care about Uncle Jack’s babble about the money.

-I wish we had been able to spend more time with this new version of Walt as it’s so radically different from anything we’ve seen from him before. However, the show did an excellent job of believably earning this new state of being in such a short time.

-“Say you want this,” Jesse implores Walt like he did back in “Confessions” and for once Walt is completely honest and says that he does want Jesse to kill him. Jesse can’t give Walt what he wants at this point though. It’s interesting but this is the most honest we’ve ever seen Walt. There’s no manipulation or falsity to his conversations with Skylar or Jesse. Even when he’s playing Lydia, Todd and the Nazis, the act is nowhere near as convincing as it was when Walt was at his finest acting.

-It’s very telling that Walt feels Jesse has earned the right to kill him.

-Second to last scene of the episode: Jesse escaping triumphantly; Walt standing isolated, bleeding out. The way Gilligan cuts it draws a connection between the two characters. It’s a triumphant moment for both even if for Walt it feels a little less so.

Grade: A